Heartache...!!

y do i always get the bad points...
cant i even for once get a good point...
everything i do seems wrong...
seems not up to expectations...
in his eyes especially...
even when i feel that i've achieved sth,
he said its not good...
c'mon laa...
i noe its sumwat supposed to b a motivation...
but cant be for everything lor...

i feel horrible now..
juz wanna drop in tears..
hurts badly...
damn it larrr.....

Apalah nasibku ini,
Kenapa terjadinya begini;
Tidakku inginkan ianya terjadi,
Tapi apakan daya, Allah sedang menguji..

ok...here i am again...
blogging my feelings out...
crapping about myself...

people can be so transparent in the eyes of others...
well..u wud say it's normal n stuffs..
but think...
humans aint transparent...
they're there to be looked at...
at a glance at least...
and with that...
u shud feel their presence...
watch wat u say...

ok...i dunno what that means..
but yea...
its good to be thinking in such a way...
meanss....
u've gotta think of otherss...

ok..enuf of that..
hmm..yesterday..had lunch at Yasalam..
at last i found sth nice there...
chicken chop..got mushroom lei..
damn nice..

then off to sch...
another tiring day...
pathetic too...
but full of laughters...
*we sure do can make ourselves laugh w/o the presence of anything funny...*

den off home at ard 7..
was late uh actually..

thenn...slacked lor...
wat else cud i possibly do...

today...i hav to follow my dad...
fetch n send kindergarten kids home...(Hanis Montessori Kindergarten)
superb sch i muz say...
they teach the kids all kind of doa's that mayb some adults cant even remember..
n i muz say the kids r superb too..
to be able to memorise all those doa's...
wow...i really look up to these kinda kids mann...
make me malu at times to juz think that they noe more than me...
*goshhh...*

but yea...kids will owaes b kids...
playful...
n they call me 'AUNTIE'...
then i'll be like...'What auntie2 hah..call me kakak!!'..
n they'll start calling me 'kakak' here n there...
but they're cute lar...
n funny...
never fails to make me laugh...
heh~...

till then..
peace...

Pemanis kata, penganti doa,
Doa datang harumnya bunga;
Bila matahari mula menjelma,
Slamat pagi buatmu cinta...

this is life...
at times u feel like u're the top of evrything...
n at times u juz feel so low...

ok..that has nth to do wit this entry...heh~

today..met ju at paya lebar where she initially wanted to change her baju..
but tak jadi..cuz we were'nt sure if the baju wud shrink..
*now we hav the same baju..n soon will ria..*
*winksss*

then..off to sch..
juz tiring...........

afta sch..went for milkshakes at J.E..
n took bus home..where ju got high for some reasons..ahah..

n the highlight for today was the free briyani...
all thanks to Hannan...
*thanx dude...shall visit ur stall more often yarh..* hehe
(n yea...my dad said its superbb..so ppl..if u're tinking of getting it, go to geylang..stall name is S. A. Hamid sth sth sth...go search...*smilez*)

hmmm...
at times..it juz made me think..
how many ppl had talked abt me behind my back..
the bad of me especially..
i realli wanna noe lei...
i need to improve on myself...
i know im bad...
realli bad...
will do a reflection soon la huh...*whee*

in d meantime..
tc..peace...

whassup ppl...
as a start..
i'll intro myself ya..
The name's wiyah...
Age 18...
Currently in Singapore Polytechnic..Aerospace Electronics..
n Here's a lil' glimpse abt me..
im a gurl who's noisy but can be damn quiet at times..
a gurl who has to grab hold of her life..*sighz*
a gurl who talks crap..
a gurl who is mentally crazy..*gawdd*
a gurl who is self-conscious..
a gurl who is simple yet complicated..*winkz*
a gurl who loves her life..a gurl who loves ppl ard her..*mu@ckz*
a gurl who's gonna change for the better..
and..
a normal gurl who cant run away frm making mistakes..*smilez*