ASE is such a killer...
super killer i muz say...
there go my hope of catching up...
haizz...

actually..
even if the paper was ok...
was do-able...
fat hope i can catch up wit my fellow classmates...
they're like the cleverest bunch of hardworking ppl i mus sayy...
when im like the total opposite...
wonder why im in that class also..
ahaha...

now...
m counting down to the day of my last paper...
next wed...
i tink...
heh~...

but while doing that...
i tink i wanna spare the next 2 wks to do anything that i want...
after that...
muz study liaoo...
i hope im gon study...
hehe...
the exams r like in 5 - 6 wks time onli leii...
like so fast like that...
urrgghhh....

ok then...
im off for now...
till the next entry...
peace...

When i close my eyes...
Its YOU i see...
YOU are everwhere to me...

* Love...wiyaaa... *

at last....
its coming to an end...
*sigh of relieve*

last paper for the week...
i noe i muz give my best shot...
but well..
i guess..
there's too much things in my head...
things that bothers me to the point of distraction...
things that happen just like that...
without warning...
and all i've got to do is...
accept it...
*smile*

ok..
books, papers, notes...
all laid down in front of me...
but i realli cant get my attention to it...
i realli juz feel like not bothering bout it...
but...
there's this part of me saying that i need to study...
it'll b such a waste if i were not to study...
this module is onli for one semester...
and...
i didnt make it for the past projects or watsoever...
so this is my chance to catch up with the rest...
i hope...

i tink some ppl can realli b unreasonable...
the reasons they give in a pathetic voice can realli drive someone to the last stage of anger...
they say things just for the sake of saying...
but they dont practice what they preach...
y waste the time n effort to preach in the first place...
when u noe that it'll mean nothing...
to urself especially...
haizz...
May God shine the light on u...
May God show u the right path...
May God give me strength and patience always...
Amin.....

okok...
i have a about 3.5hrs to finish up studying 3 long long chapters...
and also to touch on some past yr papers...
hope there's enuf time huh...
if not...
i'll just crap thru...
*winks*

alright then...
till later...
hv fun...

Semoga penyakit itu cepat berlalu...
Semoga dirimu seperti dulu...
* take care *

Assalamualaikum....

stress fill the air around me...
realli...
mst period mahh now...
like so much to study with so little time...
sianzzz....

ahaha...
someone is like cursing my blog away...
jealous is it...
i dun care...
ahahah...

hmmm...
i really had the urge to not come home early on monday...
n yes...
it all happen for a reason...
a reason that realli benefited me alot...
all thanks to Him...
*smiles*

ok...
im super tired now...
just got back...
n im spose to study...
but well...
i'll juz pass the studying part and juz head for bed...
hav paper tomorow/today...
n luckily its in the evening...
but i dun foresee myself waking up early leiii...
aahahaha...

yes yes...
the bed is so calling me now...
so yea...
till later...
peace...

U realised...
But didnt do anything bout it...
U admitted...
Without any feeling of guilt...

~I DUN wanna noe ur reason!!~

time was spent wonderfully today...
really wonderful...
*smilez*

yesterday...
went to bukit gombak stadium...
got zikir selawat tingy...
by Ustaz Shafi...
superb!!!
it really touched me...
right deep into my heart...
hope it'll lead me to b a better person...
Insya'Allah...

no wonder my heart was not at its right pace yesterday...
before goin bukit gombak that is...
was feeling that sth is bound to happen...
n yep...
it happened at bukit gombak...
how nice...
ahaha...

alright then...
im off for now...
peace...

Im just not good at expressing myself...
But i hope u can see thru me...
Thru my heart...
That there's onli one name there...
A name that i hope will not have to be erased...

*Love...wiyaaa...*

hello...

wat a wonderful day it is todae...

in the morning...
wasnt sure wat i was feeling...
in the noon...
still unsure of wats in me...
in the evening...
all the feelings fell into place...
at night...
im feeling great...
superb!

felt loved...
felt blessed...
felt...
all the great feelings that anyone cud feel...

alright then...
back to my books...
sheesshh...
i've still got tonnes to cover...
sianzz...

till later...
take care...

im just too happy to say anything...
*smiles*

no words to describe how i truly feel now.....

* i miss u *
May the love continue to grow...

feeling lost...
feeling emotional...
feeling sensitive...
God noes y...

got tis frm an email...

WASIAT NABI MUHAMMAD S.A.W. kepada SAIDINA ALI R.A.;

Wahai Ali, bagi orang 'ALIM itu ada 3 tanda2nya:
1) Jujur dalam berkata-kata.
2) Menjauhi segala yg haram.
3) Merendahkan diri.

Wahai Ali, bagi orang yg JUJUR itu ada 3 tanda2nya:
1) Merahsiakan ibadahnya.
2) Merahsiakan sedekahnya.
3) Merahsiakan ujian yg menimpanya.

Wahai Ali, bagi org yg TAKWA itu ada 3 tanda2nya:
1) Takut berlaku dusta dan keji.
2) Menjauhi kejahatan.
3) Memohon yang halal kerana takut jatuh dalam keharaman.

Wahai Ali, bagi AHLI IBADAH itu ada 3 tanda2nya:
1) Mengawasi dirinya.
2) Menghisab dirinya.
3) Memperbanyakkan ibadah kepada Allah s.w.t.

i feel that im so far frm all that...
i hav to work harder to achieve it...
i need to work harder...
i need it...
God...Help me please...

ok...
m lazy to do anything now...
so yea...
till later then...
take care...

I hope u r true to me...
But if u're not...
Then i hope u would just say it to me...

*...Love...*

im like regretting what i did...
not onli did it hurt me...
but it sumhow did made me hv doubts...
haiyooo...
but...
i aint gon let those doubts take over me...
doubts can just stay as doubts...
but it dont hav the right to change the way i m...
i tink that sounded funny...
but watever la huh...

haiyyaaa...
c laa...
curiosity can realli do harm to u...
dunno y i did it also...
haizz...

but yea...
mayb God is trying to tell me sth...
which i dun noe of...
which onli He knoes it...
like they say...
ada hikmah disebalik apa yang terjadi...
hope its a good one...
well...
lets juz pray to Him...
may he give me strength always...
amin...

aniwayss...
dun worri...
im perfectly fine yar...
tnx to all my darlings for their concern...
*huggsss*
*muaCKs*

got this somewer in the net...

Smile, though your heart is aching.
Smile, though it feels like breaking.

guess thats wat i always do huh...
n m sure to stick to that...
*smiles*

aniways...
Happy Fathers Day to all dads out there...
may y'all lead a wonderful life with a happier family...
may y'all be blessed always yar...
Insya'Allah...

aight then...
the game my stomach is playing with me is reaching the critical stage...
so yea...
gotta take my leavve now...
till later...
peace...

Let me repeat...
Im not gon let those doubts take over me...

i wanna cry...
i seriously wanna drop in tears now...
but yea...
still hav to hold on to it...
it juz wont do me any good...
haizz...

it hurts...
badly indeed...
all the why's come running in mind...
only God noes the reason...

alienated...
alone...
weak...
useless...
that feeling fills me now...

hope it goes away soon...
hope it doesnt stay for long...
its just gon hurt me even more...

may the reason for this entry...
stay between me, my heart and God Almighty...
*Ya Allah...sesungguhnya..hanya Engkau yang tahu isi hatiku ini...*

Thank you for making me smile...
Despite all my sadness and pain...

*Love...wiyaaa*

Life for me has been realll sweett...
super swweett....
touching....
*winks*

ok...
my sis is in camp...
the 6mths one...
but she'll only be at camp for 5 days...
stay home 2+ days...
and go camp again...
taht will b the life awaiting her...
6 mths lei...
wont b that long la huh...
ol the bez!!
*smilez*

i definitely find it not wrong to b in love...
its a wonderful thing...
realli...
but i just dont understand why would anyone lie about it...
like okayy...
some ppl would say that they wanna keep a low profile and all...
but yea..
keeping a low profile doesnt mean that u shud lie about it mahh...
im not saying the u shud announce it to the world...
but juz b truthful lor...
what does this hav got to do wit me?
i dunno...
heh~
*crap*

today!!!
a real sweet day for me...
sweet morning...
sweet afternoon...
sweet evening...
*especially the evening part... :) *
sweet night?
im yet to find out...
but it looks sweet to me...
hehe...

mst coming...
mst means stress...
stress means food...
n food means weight...
well my kind of food is junk food btw...
ahaha...
haizz...
realli scared for the mst lei...
hv been a super slacker in SP...
i tink if there's a 'slackers' award...
my name wud b top in the list...
ahaha...
siannzz...

hmmm...
my neighbour is going umrah 2mr...
and i hav to send her...
and its in the morning...
gosshhh...
i hope i can wake up lei...
heh~

ok...
n that means i hv to hit the bed now...
so yea...
till the nxt entry...
take care...
peaceee...

Correct me if im wrong...
Just say it to my face...
I need to b a better person...
For u and only u...
*winksss*

damn this elearning thingy...
damn my comp...
damn laa....

heart pain sia do all this elearning ting...
can cry u noee...
lag so much...
so difficult...
so troublesome...
urrggghhhh....

ok...
at least now im left wit onli one quiz...
and some schematic diagram tingy...
i hope thats all im left to do...
sianzz...
dun tink i'll do well for this sem man...
sure terok one lorr...
haizz...

enuf of elearning...
hmmm...
went to the john little sale juz now...
was ok laa...
but my mum realli walk fast man...
n im strapped wit my sis to find her stuffs for camp...
ahaha...
well...
at least my mum bought me some stuffs too...
wheee~....
tnx mum...
*muaCKs*

my life has been real sweet...
im always looking forward the next day...
looking forward to receiving sth new...
wonderful...

and yea...
got a super belated burfday present frm someone last fri...
ahaha...
its realli super belated lorr...
but yea...
i stilll appreciate it lots...
thankss...
*smilez*

wokaizz....
im like so supposed to sleep now...
gotta wake up super early 2mr/today...
and wont gt sleep till god noes wat time...
*/God...*/
*/give me strength pls...*/

okok...
gotta go...
till later...
take care...

Missing and Loving u is all i do...
Cant bear to part with u...

*winksss*

~*emo mood*~

Setiap detik masa berlalu
Setiap detik ku merindui mu
Memang sukar untuk kau dekati
Biarlah jauh di mata, kau tetap di hati

Kau tahu aku insan biasa
Kadangkala tewas tidak terdaya
Ada waktu-waktu aku terleka
Kejutkan adainya aku terlupa

Bagiku kau penyeri
Yang menerangi jiwa sepi
Menanti mu dengan cahaya
Di hujung jalan nan gelita ku
Aku tahu kau pasti di situ
Melebarkan jendelamu
Setianya menunggu

*Love...wiyaaa...*

Abstracted from Hetty Sarlene, Kau di hati...

hello...

yesterday was a superbly great day indeed...
n i realli mean superb!!
hehe...
had lots of fun....
went to some shop named "workshop" at sunshine plaza...
im like so amazed with all the stuffs there lor...
eventhou it aint related to my course of study...
but like...woahh...
making sth with a scale of 1:50...
can so b cock eye in no time mann...
ahakzz...

n the skyview at the national library at bugis is superb!!
so nice...
go check it out yar...
go at night...
*winkss*

ok...
been realli busy for past few days...
lotsa stuffs to do sia...
haizz...
n now...
im in sch....
doing some e-learning stuffs...
pathetic laa...

n worst of all..
my computer is down...
damn!!

bout the pics...
have to wait till i get it frm faiz...
*sorrie faizz...internet aku sth wrong la...nanti2 baru kasi aku k...tnx*

hmmm...
my sis is back...
n she'll b gone for the next 6 mths...
starting frm 13th june 2006...
but will c her fortnightly i spose...
well...
watever it is...
i wish her lucks in everything she do...
all the best sis!!
take care!!
have fun!!

aight then...
im like so spose to do my e-learning now...
but well...
im too easily distracted huh...
hheheh...
n the guy next to me is like listening to some metal song...
super loud i tell u...
how on earth m i gon concentrate...
gossshhh....
im so gon headbang instead of doing work...
aahaha...
may god shine the light on him...

okok...
im off for now...
take care...

Begitu indah kata-katamu itu...
Terlalu indah hinggakan aku kehilangan kata-kataku...
Hanya yang ingin aku katakan padamu...
Aku amat menyayangimu...

there's like so much wind today...
ahah..
that sounded wierd...
but yea...
its super windy today...
niceee...
make me feel so like emo-ing...
ahaha...

ok...
went to kampung melayu juz now...
got some nurhayat stuffs there...
im like sebok2 there onli...
hehee...
but yea...
funny laa...
d freshies had to do some malay dances...
learn how to wear the samping...
and play capteh...
n i, hawa and aishah...
being the biolz there...
made a fool of ourselvess...
ahaha...
its more like having our own kinna fun there uhh...
too some stupid pics...
will upload it when i gt it frm aishah...
insya'Allah...
*winks*

n guess wat...
i noe how to wear samping la seyy...
the one wit the bunga...
so nice...
but yet to be perfected...
ahaha...

damn...
my thumbdrive is wit my fren...
by accident that is...
n i hav so many stuffs in there...
n i realli mean manyyy...
hmmm...
well...
worst come worst...
i'll get it back when sch starts...
aahaha...
n thats like 3wks time...
goshhh...
*wondering...*

ok...
im like spose to b asleep by now...
gotta wake up at 3 later...
aight then...
peace...

Walaupun sudah berkali-kali ku baca...
Namun kesemuanya tetap ku simpan...
Susah benar untuk aku membuangnya...
Selagi aku masih dalam kegelapan...

heyzz...

ahaha...
got this farnie email frm my fren...
damn farnie mann...
ahaha...
its typical singaporean jokes actually...
ok...
i'll juz cut n paste one...
here goes...

Ah Beng with two red ears went to his doctor..
The doctor asked him what had happened to his ears and he answered,
"I was ironing a shirt and the phone rang..
but instead of picking up the phone..
I accidentally picked up the iron and stuck it to my ear."
"Oh dear !" the doctor exclaimed in disbelief.
"But ... what happened to the other ear ?"
Ah Beng answered : "That stupid dumbo called back, lah!!!"

damn farnie one lor...
cant stop laughing mann...
got others uhh...
but dun tink will b posting evrything here lei...

btw...
the favour has been fulfiled...
surprisingly...
it was accepted so easily...
niceee....
hehe...

ok....
nth much happened...
juz that my ASE interview sux...
i tink im gon get low grades for it mann...
haizzz....

aight den...
shall blog in again later...
in the meantime...
take carez!!

Don't keep me in the dark...
Just say it straight to my face...

well...
the favour has not been fulfiled...
the time was just not right yesterday...
sorry...

was home early sia today...
real early...
early for the wk at least...
heh~...

hmm...
my sis will b goin KL tonight...
taking train...
so to her...
hav fun with the 6hr ride yar...
n take good care of urself hor...
go safely n come home safely...
come back in one piece hor...
hv fun...
*smilez*

till later...
peace...

im sick of words...
for today that is...